I can't even count the amount of times I have tried to find my creativity back but it didn't work. And all that time I was finding ways and new methods, but nothing worked because ... I wasn't calm enough. And I never thought that was the actual problem...



For a while, I wanted to be more creative. I thought I lost it. I used to be so creative and full of fantasies and dreams, and now? I was sitting in my chair, in front of a blank piece of paper AND Nothing Came. Nothing.

Yesterday, I was really creative, and all of a sudden I could tell what had changed. I was calm, no anxiety, no deadlines, no phone! Yes, no phone or electronic devices (only for music though!). And I felt so good. I did yoga, meditation, cleaned my room, ate the most delicious egg ever (the white was nice and tight and the beginning of the yellow also but in the middle, it was soft and squishy! This is like the main reason I can't be vegan! But I am trying to figure out a way to be vegetarian, I'll write about this in another blog post because it is kind of a difficult thing to explain, why"I try", and why for now I am not an official vegetarian). I took a piece of paper and I started drawing from the heart, letting it all go. I can say, for now, I am really happy with the sketch and the beginning of my watercolor painting.

Here are the steps for a creative day!

1. First, yes, put your phone, from the beginning of the day, away, at a place where you can not see it or hear it. Learn to live without it! Damn, we are so attached to that thing that we can't even work normally without checking it every single minute! It's really no life that way!
2. Make a list of all the things you would like to do, and set your intentions right! This helps you to keep going and not feel the need to grab your phone. Also, do the things you have been neglecting for the past week, months maybe? Come on, get your ass working, clean that floor and do for once the dishes with your bare hands instead of using a machine that uses 10 times more water than you need. Clean your bathroom and declutter that drawer that has been nagging you every time you lay your eyes on it.
3. Start your morning mindful, do some yoga or a workout, meditate if you like to, put some healing music on and do what you gotta to do. I feel like cleaning the house with cleansing music helps a lot and I kind of enjoy it more and more.
4. So first you did everything that desperately needed to be done. Once you are DONE, doesn't it feel amazing, your home is clean, (take a shower, you always deserve a good shower), you are clean, your mind is free from distractions! Now you can finally relax. Sit for a while, read that book you wanted to read for so long, take this moment to do what you feel like you need to do FOR  YOURSELF!
5. And now, you are done. Get that calmness back, relax, go outside, go to the dog park, be in nature and breathe. Breathe all the way into your belly, not your chest, your belly ... ... breathe out all the air and repeat this step. Enjoy.
6. I have a question for you for this step: what is your kind of way to be creative? Is it drawing, painting, taking photos, dancing...?
   Start doing it. Try not to think too much, just do it, and we will see where the ship ends up.

When I look back at my years at school, I can't say they were fun, nor exciting. I found my way of getting through this and I'll tell you how I managed to get through it in a second. But can you also believe me that even though I hated it, I had fun and "friends"?



 I am proud of the way I got through this even in the hardest times. A week before my exams we had to euthanize our dog, I saw the vet doing her thing, and I cried, oh how I cried... Then during the last week of my exams, our family got into a huge fight with our neighbours... The cops even came over... I mean come on, can a student these days not learn peacefully?

Anyway, I have my diploma, I graduate and I am so thankful that I did!

And I am flabbergasted, how did I manage to get through these exhausting days at school where it seemed that all my energy and wanderlust was taken away from me?
So I started looking back at my days. For some magical reasons I can recall mostly beautiful and good memories, but let me tell you, those are only a few. Mostly from last two years. This last year was definitely not easy but it was better than the years before and I started actually connecting with more people.
Nevertheless, I never felt really understood by my teachers. Nor supported. Finding friends wasn't easy and most of my time I remember myself hoping between different groups of friends.
But the funny thing is you'll start getting used to that.

So first I want to say to you, start appreciating the things you have instead of the things you haven't. I didn't have a solid group of friends but I knew that in art class I would be with "those" people and I started making a good time. Well I have to admit too that when I am tired I get weird, and I laugh at a lot of things, even the most stupid things, so art class was last period and it was always fun. The girl I was with ended up being the girl I got to with prom. Back then she was just a girl who was nice, now we are friends, and I like that.

Second of all, I want you to stay true to yourself. People know when you are trying too hard, and this will only give the opposite effect of what you want. I know a girl whom I think tries too hard to be special and different. She is passing the entire point of being different. Being different doesn't mean you should be outstanding and explicitly dressed, it just means that you are who you are. Let me explain this with an example: When you see someone who has a bohemian vibe but dresses like a street girl, I mean, it doesn't feel right... do you get me? Don't be that girl, find your style, your vibe and let it resonate with the person you are from within. This way you'll attract like-minded people into your life. It's freeing!

I think I said this one before, but please, please, please, love yourself. You are special in every way! There is only one person on this earth that is like you and you are unique! And let's be honest, the only person you'll have to live with your entire life is yourself, so why not just start, at least excepting that! It will make life so much more fun. And that way, you will start attracting people who see the greatest in you.

And my last one for today, don't be with the wrong kind of people. I think this was my biggest, biggest struggle. And even now, I still do regret not having done this before. A lot of people will never want you to succeed, they say they do, but behind your back, they will talk shit about you. I think that saying this you'll already have some people in mind. Get rid of them, unfriend them, remove them from your phone and let them live their life. Their energy will only bring you down, and you'll lose yourself because of them. Please don't let this happen. Stay true to yourself and your beliefs.

Minimalism. I don't know how much I have heard that word in the past years. It has taken over a great part of a lot of peoples lives. As soon as you say that word people have an image of it. Most of the time a home, like Rachel Aust or Jenny Mustard. But there is another kind of minimalism nobody really talks about...

"In some areas on my life I became a minimalist and for some, I choose to not let it influence me. "

New things are about to happen! A change will come on my blog, not so much in the layout, but more in the content. I am going to let my mom write on my blog too. We decided to do this because she has so much knowledge in her and I believe she could help a lot of you out with her advice.