On The Monthly Journal, we are going to talk about feelings, my goals, plannings, just a recap of the month, I feel like sharing this with you because maybe then we can help each other out. I am in no mean an expert, and sometimes, reading the point of view of someone else can help see things different, clearer, and sharing each others expertise can lead to a major difference in our lives! I know for example that Rachel Aust has helped me so much in my confidence, just the view words she said made me realize something so big  (Read here what see said)! And anyone can do that! Also, I think that every end of the month, if people are commenting below, I'll choose one of the comments ( or more) that helped me out and could help you as well. This could also happen in any random blog post of mine if it is relevant to what I am writing. Of course, you will be named (and featured if you have a blog) and  if you want to stay anonymous add that to the comment.
Last week I was talking with some people about insecurities. Even though I am more secure about myself now, I still do feel insecure on some topics. For example, if someone from school would ask me if I have a YouTube channel I would turn red and be insecure because I don't like people from school knowing about my blog or my YouTube channel. Only a view people know about it. But, why? Why am I so insecure about it, I should be proud of myself by doing the things I love, right?  And, as long as I love what I am doing it shouldn't matter. But no, I am insecure about it, and I know it, but even if people would know, I know that I won't quit. In the end, they will find out...
So, I hope you weren't too shocked by my blog post last week, I know, it was a little harsh, I just wanted to step out of my comfort zone and tell you guys my thoughts on the people who bully. And also about my YouTube channel. I Love you guys, and that the reason I told you I am going to make YouTube video again. I have somewhat worked out my plans and some videos. My plans are to upload regularly every two weeks on a Tuesday, to make it a lifestyle channel and maybe if you want me to, vlog. I don't know about the vlogging, do you like it? would you love to see me vlog?
Actually, I realize that I need to let things go and move on. Let the mean comment go, be myself, loving what I do and doing what I love. Caring more about what I think and not other people. I have to let it go.

I have been thinking a lot about this... I used to make videos... And I Loved it! But then... I quite... I couldn't keep it up, like so much things in my life. Of course, after a view weeks, I felt like I wanted to be filming again... But I didn't... why? Because I know I can't keep it up.





Keeping things up for me is super difficult. It always has been like that... Keeping my room clean and cluttered... two weeks later... BAM a mess. I am going to keep up blogging... After a month...BOM no post anymore. I know it... It's my downfall. But for every downfall is a solutions.
Lately, I have been watching Thomas Frank Youtube videos, from College Info Geek's blog and this guy has helped me so much the past month! He posted a video about why you should "Stop trying to 'find your passion'. And that was the moment everything felt in it's place. It so obvious, why didn't I think about this before? Let's what it together, shall we?

School can be a hard place to be. Do you feel like nobody likes you, that you are different, that you need to change yourself to be liked? I know I did, and I have learned a lot because of that situation. So let me help you to stay happy at/in school!

I have felt a lot of time not understood, maybe because I had lived most of my life in France, but also maybe because mentally I was much older then the others. That made it really hard for me to understand them, and them to understand me. I always (still sometime) felt like I was an outcast... But because of this long time struggle I was facing I learned a lot. And I hope to help you with my advises.

1. This one is so cliché but so true... Love Yourself. How can anybody love you if you don't even love yourself. Love yourself for yourself, not because you want others to love you too.
   That's the mistake that I made. I tried to love myself so that in return other people would love me too... that didn't work out...
2. Exercise. It's proven that working out keeps you on a positive mindset. It's good for your focus, your health, your happiness, stress relieving and it's anti depressive too! WORK OUT! 
3.  No stress and practice mindfulness. As I was going through a hard time in school I tried to practice mindfulness. Being mindful is being aware of everything that surrounds you and yourself. Eat slow and with passion, listen carefully to your surrounding, do you hear any birds? cars? wind? feel your feet touching the ground, your hand touching something... This will keep you focused and thankful for what you have.
   Stress isn't a good thing in general, it give you pimples, bad grades... it's just a very bad thing in life... cut it out of your life. It works the same as what I wrote in a preview post about living your feelings, you can read it HERE. It's just so bad for your Health.
4. Sleep more. I hear from so much people at school "I am so tired" my first though is usually "Well go sleep earlier! it's your choice to sleep at 1 am... " And then they complain about bad grades... sleeping is the main thing to keep you energized through the day, and healthy food of course but when you sleep enough, you mind will be able to focus more and will understand things easier and you will remember it easier. 
5. Give up trying to please everybody... As Sam Smith said: "Don't chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard. The right people- the ones who really belong in your life- will come to you"
6. Keep visualizing your dream future, nothing is impossible, you just have to believe in yourself. Law of attraction! 

I have never done a post on this before, why? Well because my skin breaks out tremendously quick and I have never used on a daily basis make-up. I also never have much to say about it.., I love make-up but some how...writing about it isn't my thing.

 As I said, I never really wore make-up on a daily basis, but when I do wear make- up These are my to-go-to products:

• Maybelline New York/ Super stay 24H. This one, miraculously doesn't break me out that fast. I think because it's a light and breathable foundation. It stayed on even when I was working-out and it has no fragrance. I won't say it stayed on 24H but it does a good job (I need to go on the bike to school (which means 11 km to school and 11 back), It stayed on quiet wel when I came home, I worked-out after school. Next day no break-out)
• Yves-Rocher 100% natural origin. This is a loose powder foundation, I use this one to set my make-up most of the time because other loose powders break me out. It has a light shine to it which gives you a beautiful glow and sometimes I use it a to highlight my face.
• H&M Bronzing powder. Sometimes, I like to contour a little. Then I use this one, it doesn't have that shine it like most bronzers have.
• Otherwise for contouring I'll use Revolution (Makeup Revolution London) blush palette to contour and highlight. I don't really have something to say about the bronzing products, but If you have comment below! would love to hear what you think about it!)
• Rimmel Londen Exaggerate. This is a crayon eye-liner with a sponge on the end to smug it out. I love this one because you can put in on your waterline. I use this one as base for my winged eye-line and I love it so much. I have very oily eye but this one doesn't smug at all!
• Rimmel Londe 001 Black Gel Eyeliner. This is so black! Love it! it comes with a brush, I needed to get the hang of that brush first but know everything goes super smooth and it's just super easy and beautiful! 

•  I started by using again my Yves Rocher Sebo Végetal , this is a purifying gel for oily skin like me. I use this morning and evening. My skin feels fresh and healthy, and not so oily anymore and after using it a week I can see some difference. I love it!
• After cleansing my face I  use my Yves Rocher Sebo Végétal Purifying Micellar Water 2 in 1. This is a toner and it purifies your skin. My skin feels amazing after using it.
• Sudocrem has been my to-go-to when I have wounds on my face or some redness. It is a miracle product! After two day the redness and wounds are almost gone! This is my holy-grail!
• At last I add a touch of Rituals nourishing body cream, the one that I am using right now is "Touch of Happiness". I don't know if it is for men or not, my father says so, my mother said not, But I love the smell.

It's funny how everybody feels like new year is a new chance to start all over again. I don't really make new year resolutions anymore, I make New Day resolutions!

It all started a few years ago, I figured out that making new year resolutions wouldn't work for me, I wish I belong to the 17% of the population who really achieved their New Year Resolutions... but I don't. This year I realized that every day can be a new chance, a new life, a new you, from that moment I started making My day resolutions. It's like a daily goal thing, except... a little different. This doesn't mean I have new resolutions every day.
Still I like to visualize my year, how it is going to be. Law of attraction says that if you truly believe in it, you visualize it, you know it's going to be that way, it will be that way. And I am a big believer of the Law of Attraction.

My Sort of New Year resolutions:

- know my passion
- Stay organized
- Stay motivated for school (* Soon on my blog*)
- And of course, pick up pilates again!

These are things I actually almost mention every day in my New day resolutions.
Since I've been so down, I feel like I lost my passion, and I am not sure how to find it back, but this year I will find it! I know I will! Last year I believed that I would finally find myself again, and guess what? I found myself in one of the darkest days of my life!

Staying organized has always been something extremely difficult, but since last month, I have never been that organized, it creates clearness in your mind and it helps me so much to stay on track with my homework and hopefully also my blog and my YouTube channel ... :)

School hasn't been a happy place for me the last view years, and it's hard to see the positive side of it after such a long time. I know school can be a fun place, and I know this year it will be better.

I did for two years pilates with Cassey Ho on a schedule, I loved it, I felt alive, happy, full of energy and concentrated! All those good feelings make me wanna pick it up again, and I will! I do it for the feeling! For the love of Pilates.

What are your resolutions for this year?? Every day is a new day, this means you can always start over again, at any time you want! Don't forget that!