SILVER LININGS
10:00:00
Is there
anybody who has never heard this saying before? No, I don’t think so. But when
you are in the middle of your misery, wandering why all this shit is happening
to you, it is very difficult to keep on seeing the silver lining behind it all.
As with
everybody, it also happens to me.
Coming home
one day, I discovered my bedroom-window broken, shattered by a beer bottle that
was lying on my pillow. At moments like this, you feel very vulnerable. That
other people can deliberately destroy something that is yours, be able to come
uninvited in your sacred area where you think you are safe, is a frightening thought.
The police
had to come, the insurance had to be called and of course, the window had to be
replaced. But it is a lot of hassle and it takes quite some time before
everything is normal again. The consequence was that I had to postpone my
planned holiday which made me even more angry and disappointed.
The same
week, I discovered that the exhaust pipe of my very loyal Suzuki Jimney, who
has never been ill before or refused to work for me in the last 12 years, had
become so old and leak that it had to be replaced completely. This was a huge
unexpected financial set-back and did
not really help to make me feel better.
And last
but not least, the “date” that was
planned and of which I was hoping that it would cheer me up a bit, was canceled
at the very last moment.
I felt
myself sinking in a hole that I recognized from before and of which I know it
can be very hard to overcome once you are in it.
I already
survived starting my life all over again (as mentioned in another one of my
blogs) and was doing quite well, but now I had ended in another period of
setbacks instead of leaning on a positive flow of which I thought I finally
deserved it.
This was
the negative mood I was in and I realized I had to do something about it. So I
went for a long walk with my dog, near the waterside of the canal. The sun was
shining on its surface, the temperature was lovely and I sat in the grass,
watching the large cargo ships go by. The whole setting was so peaceful that it
immediately changed my mindset and I realized that the expenses on my car where
not so much if you have in mind that in 12 years I never had any expenses paid
for this car at all!
The broken
window of my bedroom was a great opportunity to replace the cheap single glass
into insulation glass, which was already my plan but it never came to that. Now
I had to.
And the
fact that I had to cancel my holiday made that my “date” could take place one
week later.
So
everything turned out to be okay at the end. Something I absolutely did not
realize when I was in the middle of it.
Every
negative experience seems to have a positive tribute in the end and it is a
challenge to try to look at it that way.
If you succeed, your life will be so much happier.
Good luck!
Warm
regards,
Esmeralda
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